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I’ve been meditating. Everyday. Several times a day. And I can feel the momentum building… a momentum of presence.

And I have been reading, although reading so often leaves me wanting.

After hundreds and hundreds of pages on Indian Yogis and the proper scientific practice of meditation and yoga, I came upon something really powerful. Simple and powerful. And humorous. Hundreds of pages describing complex techniques, intense discipline, practiced to perfection… it all felt silly and unnecessary to me, like patting the head while rubbing the belly. And then came the chapter on Samyama.

The emotion that came as I read the first few paragraphs on Samyama were so powerful I had to put the book down and just cry and cry and laugh. No exaggeration, it felt like I had discovered what I had been searching for my entire life. Here it was and it was so simple! And something I already knew! (Of course!)

I’m going to sum up Samyama in my own words, because in going back and re-reading the original text, my overwhelming sense it that it can be so much simpler than described there.

It starts with the basic stillness found in meditation. You do not need years and years of meditative practice, or even hours and hours. Once you’ve found that calm silence (could be your first time) Samyama can be utilized.

From that state of calm silence, gently pick up a word that represents your desire. Just one word that represents a powerful intention. Let’s start with Love. You are in silence, you pick up the word Love, hold it just long enough to feel it and then let it go, go back into silence. Stay in the silence for a bit (maybe 10-15 seconds). Pick up the word Love again, hold it until you feel it, let it go back into the silence. Repeat as many times as you like and then move onto another intention.

That’s it. Easy.

The three words I prefer to use are Love, Unity, and Radiance. Because to me, it kind of emphasizes the very process of Samyama. In reaching for silence, love appears. With love comes unity or communion with All That Is. Radiance broadcasts that ‘One Love’ back out to the boundaries of the Universe. And as a result, my life becomes the physical manifestation of all of that!

You can use any word representing any desire or intention you hold. There are no rules and you need not worry because you cannot have a bad intention. No matter what you throw into the silence, only goodness comes bouncing back. You can’t get it wrong! One important point… don’t expect some miraculous happening during your meditation as a result of Samyama (voices, epiphany, visions, etc.)… look for the the effects in your daily life.

Try it… you’ll like it!

Next post, I’ll talk about how this super simple picking up and letting go is used outside of meditation.


Overnight the last two nights, I’ve been having intense pain in the centre of my chest. As I awoke this morning, I was told it is because my world is shifting dramatically and that spot is axis mundi. Very cool.

Originally written as a comment at and updated for this post.

I talked about the Magic Eye images a few months back in my post where, in meditation, I reached this state of being that felt flat, 2D, immediate (no time or space… or more precisely ALL time and space made local and instant). Like the reverse motion of the Magic Eye image… the collapse of form back into flatness. I recognized this localized oneness right away as a familiar state from my early childhood. 

This concept has been communicated to me several times throughout my life, like a reminder… 2D (oneness) only becomes 3D (diversity) when assigned meaning.  I’m now beginning to understand it is an important tool of creation. By reaching for that immediate oneness state of being, we zero out, in a sense and can spring forth newly defined. It makes sense now that rediscovering it in meditation would bring me back to early childhood – the time we are all assigning meaning to our realities, solidifying them.

There is a C.S. Lewis book (I think it’s called Perelandra) where the character travels to another planet. Upon first seeing the landscape of this other planet, all he perceives is a flat plane of colour, no three dimensionality… because what he is looking at is so foreign to him he has yet to learn ‘how’ to see the landscape in 3D. I must have read this book when I was 10 or 11 years old, but that notion really stuck out for me. I was fascinated with it… didn’t quite understand it, but was fascinated.

Years later, in my early twenties, I had surgery for the first time in my life. When I awoke after the surgery, my mind was so out of whack from the drugs that upon first opening my eyes, all I saw was flatness. A flat plane with variations in colour. After a few moments of striving to make sense of what I was seeing, slowly my focus shifted, shifted, shifted and I could again perceive 3 dimensions. I was reminded of that scene in the C.S. Lewis book and finally understood what he meant. Until you define it, it’s flat. Defining it gives it more dimensions.

Just recently, I heard Bashar the channel talking about how each complete reality is like one still in a film strip. You must move from one reality to the next to the next to even have a sense of time or movement… because each reality is still and by moving through them you perceive change… again, from flat to 3D (or 4). He also describes a meditation where you imagine a flat 2 dimensional triangle… hold that for a moment… then imagine the triangle expanding to become a pyramid… hold that for a moment… then imagine it returning to a triangle… repeat. Then, imagine the same shift with your self. Imagine you as flat, or small, and then imagine yourself expanding out in all directions, and then back in, and then back out. I’ve found that visualization very potent, an important key to shifting reality.

This is how it has unfolded for me… first love, then trust, then learning to fly. Yes, I know… crazy, right? My higher self has been communicating ‘flying’ to me for over a week now and I’m finally starting to listen and understand.

It started a few months ago when I began reaching for an understanding of what it is I truly want. When you settle into what it would feel like to live in the world of your dreams, you realize what it feels like is love. So I started reaching for love and a whole new world opened up to me. I started receiving communication from my higher self, answers to all my questions, glorious new insights and understandings. The more time I spent in that communication, the more I trusted what was revealed to me. The biggest message I received was that I am moving into the ‘realm of the miraculous’. By reaching for love, you become You. And by trusting what You know, you enter the realm of the miraculous… that place where you begin to know that truly miraculous things are not only possible, they are natural.

The morning after this epiphany, this tip-toe into the realm of the miraculous, I awoke as if into a completely new world. It still looked a lot like the world of yesterday, but it was different somehow… really, the most fitting description is ‘new’ and completely still. Walking in the woods with my dog, everything felt alive. I felt like I was in a fairy tale woods, like the trees would start talking, all the animals peeking out at me in curiosity. At some point I had the thought ‘what if I could fly!’ and realized that I couldn’t feel my feet touching the ground with each step as I should, like I was floating. Like I was weightless. The rest of the day was amazingly synchronistic, actually causing me to laugh out loud a few times as things lined up so magically.

A few days later, I became semi-conscious in the middle of the night, as I often do these days. This is when much of the communication occurs… it’s very dreamlike and difficult to pin down, though I always come away with at least one definite clear statement… so clear I’ve wanted to wake my partner and tell him in the very moment of realization. So, on this particular night, I was in the midst of receiving a message and suddenly I felt like my feet were rising, effortlessly, floating. And I just thought ‘hmm… that’s interesting’. I realize now that my Self has been using ‘flying’ to communicate the possibility of the miraculous. I am learning to fly!

Someone posted this video on Facebook yesterday and I thought how glorious it must have been for those people who just happened upon this scene, not knowing what was going on and for even the briefest moment thinking they were actually seeing people fly! And for that moment, before their logical mind talked them out of seeing the miraculous, it was possible!


Bits of conversation with my Self have crept into my posts of late, but after reading Conversations with God, Book 3 by Neale Donald Walsch yesterday, I was compelled to write down my own conversations. I have deleted parts, as I’d like to keep them for myself… lists of my new definitions for my relationship with my Self, my partner, my work, etc.  

Until lately, I remembered dozens of dreams every night. Now, I feel semi-conscious throughout the night, have fleeting impressions of much ‘work being done’, many changes being made, but when I wake, it is very foggy and distant. I have a definite sense that I am stepping into a new way of being, and shifting, shifting, shifting. That is the biggest sense I am left with… a sense of stepping into Godliness, and an actual physcial sensation of shifting, shifting, shifting. Why do I not have conscious, clear memory when I wake, like I used to?

Your old way of being and the dreams which came in response were a very practiced vibration, very familiar. This new perspective is so new, you have yet to become really familiar with it. Have yet to clearly define/translate it into imagery… because the thoughts associated with this new state of being are so new you cannot rely on the old imagery. You are creating it as it goes, it is taking some adjustment to bring it into view… like focusing a lens. The more you stand in your knowing, declare it, be it, the clearer and clearer it will be.

Is this why, when I try to imagine the future or ask for a glimpse of where I am going, I only get a notion, a feeling. Because it is yet to be defined? There is nothing in existence now to compare it to, to say it is ‘like’?

Yes, that is why you have had trouble seeing it… because you were looking for it in the world. Now that you know it is coming from your decision and definition, it becomes as clear as you are willing to define. Do not wait to see evidence in your life, just define, define, define and be. Disregard all outward evidence until it shifts to your definition (which will happen quite quickly) and than claim it… ‘This is it! Here it is, my creation!’

Is there anything else?…

You are feeling this writing has come to an end, and so it has. Always trust your instincts… better yet, be Me and simply make a decision that you have finished defining your perspective for now. You are happy with the definition you have laid out and are completely content to get on with doing whatever you wish to do while the outer catches up. And when you decide you would like to add more definition, you will!

Last night, I asked my higher self what her name is (as much as higher selves have names) and the answer I got was Cassandra. I was reminded that when I was very young, 3 years old or so, I had a friend I talked to in my head named Sandy (short for Cassandra?). I would come to my mother with grand statements about some event that was about to occur in our family and my mother would ask, ‘how do you know that?’ and I would say, ‘my head told me.’ I was always right! Unfortunately, I lost that ability before starting kindergarten. As I fell asleep last night, I planned to look up the mythological Cassandra on Wikipedia and find out what she’s all about.

As I returned to work after lunch today, awaiting me on my office phone was a voice mail from a woman named Cassandra! I had completely forgotten my intention to look the name up. Here was my reminder and also a little nudge of an answer to some huge questions I was wrestling with over my lunch hour – interestingly, about what is next for me as I feel a huge, huge change about to happen but can’t quite see what it is. It is often hardest to see what is closest to you.

In Greek mythology, Cassandra was granted the gift of prophetic vision but also cursed so that no one believed her prophecies. Ha! That is exactly, EXACTLY, how I’ve been feeling these last few months… like I have this knowing of what is coming, I speak it as best I can but no one can hear me (not even the enlightened ones)! So, where does that leave me? Am I a prophet? Am I rediscovering a psychic ability I had as a child? If no one can hear me, what good is the message?

January 1, 2012!!!…(unedited, uninhibited writing from my personal journal)

Gotta capture my thoughts! Reading Steve Jobs’ biography is having a profound effect on me… helping get my thoughts in order.

The Jobs highlights:

Reality distortion field

Think different

Thought like grooves worn in a record, need to create new pathways for innovation to happen

Creating something new, something never seen before, revolutionary

The Bashar highlights:

Parallel realities and shifting

Expanding faster than the speed of light

Continuity is an illusion, not necessary

Realizing you do not need tools or techniques, just decision

Been irritated for some time about how ‘wrong’ everyone’s got it, how wrong they are all to get caught up in all the stuff that came before. It’s like they can’t see themselves or their thoughts or their future without looking through a lens of the past. Everything is filtered through that old stuff that just doesn’t need to be a factor. And it’s keeping them from seeing something new, a new way. They are all reaching for some ultimate truth, striving to see the path, their purpose, etc. and don’t realize it is completely up to them. Going to sleep last night, it occurred to me that I have to stop looking at all their stuff and declaring it wrong. Stop spending energy even looking in that direction. Instead, I need to look at what ‘IT’ is, rather than what it is not. I know what it isn’t… so what IS it?

Walking my dog through the woods this New Years morning and texting with Amy, trying unsuccessfully to communicate my notion that there is and can be a new way of thinking, a revolutionary new way that makes everything we’ve ever thought completely inapplicable anymore. She was resistant and defensive. I kept thinking it was because I could not properly articulate what I’m trying to say, can’t articulate what IT is. I kept thinking that at some point the answer would be revealed to me, that I would be ‘shown the way’ and then I’ll know how to talk about it… but then I realized!!! That is the old way of thinking! Thinking that there is a way to be shown! There isn’t! It is our design. We create the way and it doesn’t have to relate to anything that has ever been before, anywhere, ever.

And I decided, just like I need to stop looking at what IT is not, I need to stop saying that I can’t articulate it. Now is the time to define it, to articulate it, to bring it into being through my imagination and decision. My choices, my preferences.

So… what IS it? It is a new way of thinking. A new way of thinking. What does that mean? It means, instead of searching for meaning (as Amy declared I was doing!), defining it myself. It means understanding what limitless means, realizing there are no rules. It is applying the process of innovation and invention to thought itself! Redefining what thought is and how it works for us. Seeing that thought doesn’t have to work the same way it always has, but create a new framework for thought, for creation, for experience.

K… that’s all, for now. More definition to come…

A notion on which to meditate.


The RDF was said by Andy Hertzfeld to be Steve Jobs’ ability to convince himself and others to believe almost anything with a mix of charm, charisma, bravado, hyperbole, marketing, appeasement, and persistence. RDF was said to distort an audience’s sense of proportion and scales of difficulties and made them believe that the task at hand was possible. While RDF has been criticized as anti-reality, those close to Jobs have also illustrated numerous instances in which creating the sense that the seemingly impossible was possible led to the impossible being accomplished (thereby proving that it had not been impossible after all). Similarly, the optimism which Jobs sowed in those around him contributed to the loyalty of his colleagues and fans.

You will arrive at a point where you don’t need any other tool, any other technique, other than the recognition that what you choose will be so.

I’m at Starbucks this morning adding sugar to my coffee and the woman standing next to me says after a huge sigh, ‘I’m so ready to feel like a better person.’ I chuckle, as I tend to at just about everything (not in a dismissive way, but in a ‘wow, I’m really enjoying this moment’ way) and look over at her. She doesn’t make eye contact. Completely in her own world and definitely NOT enjoying this moment, she says, ‘Whatever. It is what it is. I might as well own it.’

My impulse is to say ‘then decide!’, but I don’t say it… something stops me from saying it. It’s like I’ve been put on pause and can’t get my voice to work… my mind is zipping through epiphany after epiphany, but my ability to speak is gone. Five minutes down the road I’m still smiling because I know what a powerful moment our meeting was for me. She was an answer to my question, a reminder, a confirmation. I look over and see she is in the car right beside me.

The appearance of this woman in my life, and my stifled impulse to reach out to her, finally drove it home. Stop trying to show what you know to others and just BE IT!!!

My final permission slip! Go ahead, Red, take the shortcut!

A few dream glimpses I want to firm up through documentation…

I dreamt of ‘waking the dreamer’. I was being asked, “are you sure you want to wake the dreamer? Be certain before you do it.”

I also dreamt of approaching a gathering of people, realizing it was a ‘past’ moment, though I was of the current moment… everyone in the scene was from an earlier time in my life, while I was still in the current ‘now’.  As I approached the gathering, I was reminded to be careful not to disturb or jar the contents/occupants of the scene… it would be too jarring for them to understand the truth of the situation… observe, engage, but do not draw attention to the ‘reality’ of the reality.

In both of these dreams, I was outside of the frame looking in. It was clear that I could enter the scene, interact… but my beginning place was beyond.